It's a little hard to believe that our sweet Noah is a month old today. You hear people say, "Enjoy every minute because they go by so fast." Although it hasn't really felt like it day to day, I guess looking at it now it seems that this month has gone by quickly. Noah has changed so much already right before our eyes. It was hard for us to see because we are with him every day, but he has grown a lot this first month. I can really tell when I hold him for more than five minutes. He's definitely heavier. He is also more alert and active when he's awake. His eyes seem to get brighter every day. He loves his swing, and will wave his arms around and make noise when he gets excited in it. He does not like to have his diaper changed, does not really appreciate it when you try to change his clothes, and he really hates getting a bath. He refuses to keep his arms covered while he sleeps, and is absolutely adorable when he's napping.
While it has been amazing to watch him change every day, it has also been the biggest challenge of my life. Losing sleep while having hormones running wild will really take its toll on you after a few days. And when he cries and I can't for the life of me figure out what is wrong or what to do to make him stop, I feel completely helpless. I've never had someone be completely dependent on me and I have to admit it's a little scary. But it's amazing when I hold him in my lap and he falls asleep against my chest. Or when he holds on to my finger while I feed him. And seeing Taylor with him just makes me love them both even more than I thought possible. I adore my new little family and feel so blessed to have this life that I've been given.
Being a mom has already taught me so much about love, patience, and the limits of my sanity. I've also had to learn that I am not actually Super Woman and cannot do every single thing myself. This is hard for me, but I'm working on it. So tomorrow we will begin the second month of this adventure and see what it has in store for us. I can't wait to see how Noah will grow and change as we move forward. I'm sure Taylor and I will also continue to grow and change along the way. It's a little unnerving not knowing what's to come, but I know we'll figure it out as we go. I love my new life and I wouldn't trade it for anything.